The first dispute

Hey Guys,

how are you all?

Well, I am great.... *sighs*

No... honestly I am not great... I am very disappointed and sad..

You want to know what’s happened?

Okay, so listen – I will tell you my story.

As you know, Taylor, Martin, Nurul and I were in Egypt for Mahas birthday.

It was an amazing party, the guests were great and we had so much fun together.

The performance of One Direction was amazing and Maha was so happy about the meeting with them.

She has spoken to Harry a lot and Orlando said sometimes to one of us: “Maybe I am crazy, but have you seen that?”

And each of us asked him: “What do you mean?”

His answer was always the same: “She talk to him so... close... I hope she doesn’t fall in love with him...”

We all smiled and told him: “Orlando, you know that she loves YOU! Don’t be so jealous. Be happy for her. Yes, she loves this band. But deep in her heart you are her one and only.”

The sun isn’t always shining. Sometimes there are clouds on the sky and we aren’t able to see the sun. But deep in our souls, we know that she’s never away. Sometimes we need to catch each ray of sunshine, so that we have enough sunshine in our heart for cloudy days.

I know, guys... It’s not one of my other stories full of happiness... and I wish I could write another story... a story where everything is alright and while we read this, we could laugh a lot.

No... I am sorry! It’s a sad story... a story about love and the disputes, which will come in each relationship someday.

I am sitting in the plain on my way back to Los Angeles.

Nurul is sitting next to me. She’s sleeping. Martin has his arms around her to hold her warm and tight. They are so cute together. While I am looking to this beautiful couple I feel my heartbeat. It beats slow and quiet.

The beat of my heart let me know that I am still alive. I am thankful for the sound of my heart... ‘cause in the last few days I felt like I were dead... and I hate this feeling. So, everytime when I am listening to my heartbeat I say to my heart: “Thank you for beating, beautiful heart! Even if you are broken... you are still alive.”

To say goodbye to Maha and Orlando was not easy for us. We shed a lot of tears and we all wished, that they could come with us back to L.A.

Hopefully we will see us again soon. I am looking forward to it.

I guess, Orlando will notice, that Maha loves him. Even if he think, that her love for him is shaken. I don’t believe that. Maybe they have a hard time... but the love for eachother isn’t vanished.

As I said, we can’t see the sun always... but we know, that she’s still there!

I lean back in my seat and think about the last weekend.

On our trip from Egypt to Los Angeles we’ve made a stopover in Berlin.

Taylor has invited us to come to the Breaking Dawn Part 2 premiere.

So we decide to come and support him.

As we have arrived in Berlin, Martin, Nurul and I decided to make a little sightseeing tour while Taylor was at the press conference.

Before he went away, we arranged that we meet us at the premiere.

He gave us 3 tickets, and said, that we should come at 6 o'clock (PM) to the premiere guest counter for the check-in.

Time flies, and the evening was there. We went to the check-in counter.

Woman: “Good evening! How can I help you?”

Martin: “Hello Miss. We have 3 tickets for the premiere.”

He showed her the tickets, and while we’ve got our VIP-bracelet the woman said: “Oh, just for your information. With your tickets it is not possible to see the stars.”

Martin and Nurul looked at me.

Me: “Excuse me, but I know Taylor personally. He gave us this tickets to support him on the red carpet.”

Woman: “I am sorry! Your tickets doesn’t allow you to meet the actors.”

I haven’t known what I should do at this moment, so I said to my friends: “Come! I’m sure it’s a misunderstanding. We will see Taylor on the red carpet. This woman has no clue.”

We went to the red carpet and we’ve decide to wait for Taylor and the other people.

After a few minutes a man from the security came to us and said: “Keep moving!”

And he wasn’t the only one at this evening who said this to us.

At the end, we were in the cinema. I don’t wanted to stay, so I said to Nurul and Martin: “Guys, are you angry when we leave the cinema?”

Nurul: “No, but what shall we do now?”

Me: “We go out of the cinema and keep an eye out for Taylor.”

So we left the building and searched Taylor.

It was cold. But we waited. And, finally, the actors came.

The bad thing on this situation was, that we weren’t able to see Taylor.

We’ve just seen the cars, in which they arrived.

I was so upset.

We’ve heard the girls scream and it was painful for me to know, that they all were with Taylor, while we 3 stood apart.

So, I thought it was better, to go.

We went away...

Martin: “Horrible night, huh?”

Me: “Yes... but maybe it’s better...”

Nurul: “Honey, don’t be sad. We are here with you – come on, we go and eat something.”

An hour later we sat in the hotel restaurant and ate something.

We talked about Maha and Orlando.

Martin: “Do you think Maha loves Harry?”

Nurul: “Yes.. but not so much as she loves Orlando. Harry and Maha – that’s a deep friendship. But Orlando and Maha – that’s deep love! Do you really think, that she would cheat on Orlando?”

Me: “Honey, have you ever thought, that Taylor would give us wrong tickets? It’s the same... people play with you... that’s life. So much people think that love and life are games... there will be always a winner and a loser... Orlando and I are the losers... so it is.”

Nurul: “Don’t say that Tami. Please. Taylor loves you. And Maha loves Orlando.”

Martin: “But...”

Nurul: “STOP this discussion. I don’t want to hear this anymore.... Tami look!”

I looked around me and saw Taylor. He came with Rob and Kristen.

I heard Taylors laugh and I knew, that he had fun.

Taylor: “Hey guys.”

Nurul and Martin: “Hey Taylor. How are you?”

Taylor: “I am fine. But I missed you on the premiere. Where were you?”

I said nothing. I wanted to let him know, that he has made a mistake.

He realise, that I was quiet. Too quiet.

Taylor: “Honey, what’s happened? Aren’t you lucky?”

I heard Kristen chuckle. Before I stood up, I looked at Kristen and Robert. While Kristen chuckled, Rob looked at me. He wasn’t happy and I knew, that he was able to understand why my mood was so bad. Finally I said to Taylor: “I don’t know Taylor. Should I be lucky? Do you see me smile? No?! Well, then I am not lucky. Sorry. But, I see, you have enough fun. I think Rob is the only one of you 3 who knows why I am so quiet. Maybe you should ask him if you don’t know the answer. I will go now. Bye!”

No, he haven’t tried to stop me. But that was indifferent to me. Only a silent tear attended me on the way to my hotel room...

I met Nurul and Martin at the next morning.

They waited in the Lobby and I went to my wonderful friends.

Me: “Good morning my dears.”

Nurul: “Good morning Tami. How are you?”

Me: “You don't wanna know!”

Nurul: “I am sorry!”

Me: “Don’t worry, darling! It’s not your fault.”

Suddenly I’ve heard someone’s throat behind my back.

I looked behind me and saw... Robert.

Rob: “Hey dear. I just wanted to know, how you are?”

Me: “Well, it’s okay. Don’t worry about me.”

Rob: “I am so sorry because of yesterday. Tay and Kris were high-spirited.”

Me: “Rob, please! Don’t say sorry. There is no reason for YOU, to say sorry. And, it’s indifferent for me, what Taylor and Kristen were yesterday...!”

Rob: “What are you doing now?”

Me: “I’ll fly back to LA this afternoon. Why?”

Rob: “Well, is it possible that you spend some time with me? I want to invite you to a special party! Please, say yes!”

I thought a few moments about this idea.

After Nurul and Martin told me, that they would come with us, I agreed.

Honestly, I don’t wanted to go to a party... but I noticed, that it was really important for Rob and so I came with him.

We drove a few minutes in the car.

Then we stopped. I looked out of the window and saw “Madame Tussauds”.

Rob smiled.

Me: “That’s your special party?”

Rob: “Yes... I know this stars aren’t real... but I thought you will have fun anyway.”

I laughed. It really was a nice idea of him.

Nurul, Martin, Rob and I visited the museum with the wax figures.

It was a nice afternoon – we’ve met the singer Robbie Williams, the german Formula 1 winner Sebastian Vettel, the actress Nicole Kidman and last but not least the actors George Clooney and Johnny Depp.

After our visit at Madame Tussauds, we drove to the airport and said goodbye to Robert.

Nurul: “What are you doing now, Rob?”

Rob: “I will fly to London now. I’ll visit my family there.”

Me: “Enjoy your stay in London!”

He embraced me and whispered: “Taylor would be such an idiot if he would let you go! Take care, Sweety!”

Me: “I do!”

Martin: “A penny for your thoughts!”

I look at him. Nurul is still sleeping and I realize that he watched me the whole time.

Martin: “I am sorry. I don’t want to scare you.”

Me: “It’s okay. I am not scared.”

Martin: “No, you have dreamt with open eyes, right?”

Me: “I thought about the premiere...”

Martin: “Have you heard something of Taylor?”

Me: “No. Never mind!”

Martin (smiles): “Liar! I know you are sad. And his reaction wasn’t okay. You know that.”

Me: “Yes... I know that. He’s such a jerk – only Rob knows what’s wrong...”

Martin: “Dear, I believe that Taylor knows exactly what’s wrong... “

I am looking at him and Nurul.

Me: “Sometimes I wished, that Taylor would be a normal person – like you. A doctor, or something. Maha and I... we have actors as partners... and so, we have always little problems in our relationships... but you and Nurul... you are so happy together.”

Martin: “Thank you for this compliment. But believe me, even a normal couple has troubles. THAT is normal. Remember our first meeting. Do you remember how afraid I was, because of my past? You told me a special phrase.”

Me: “Love is always worth fighting for... it's important for us to that we fight for the things we want from the bottom of our heart...”

Martin: “Yes. Do you think it was easy for me to say Nurul the truth about my past? To tell her my mistakes? You know how much I believed, she would hate me for this. But she doesn’t. She’s my angel which God has sent to me. And I am so thankful for this wonderful present.”

Me: “Nurul is such a lucky and blessed girl to have you by her side!”

Martin: “Thank you, dear! You know, each of us, no matter who, have to fight their own more or less small battles in this life. We are here to learn three things: LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH! That’s the secret. Remember, we can’t have a rainbow without rain. And we can’t love without a little pain. Your heart seems broken... but I know, that your heart is still fine. Maybe there’s a little scratch. But this wound will heal soon.”

Me: “Are you sure?”

Martin: “Yes.Your bloody wound will transform into a scarf. And someday you will look at this special scarf and think about yesterday. And I am sure, Taylor will stand behind you, hug you and he will say to you: Honey, I know I’ve made a mistake but I’ve tried to carry the pain of your scarf with you the last years. Your luck, is my luck and your pain, is my pain too!”

Me: “Are you a clairvoyant?”

Martin: “No, dear. I am just a man, who has made mistakes and learned from them. Taylor is young. He will learn his lessons, too. By the way, we will arrive in 30 minutes.”

Martin gives Nurul a kiss on his forehead and stroke her cheek.

While he’s doing that, he whispers: “Nurul, my darling. It’s time to wake up.”

Nurul opens her eyes, smiles and looks in Martins face.

I swear, I’ve never seen such a lovely sight before. The bond between them is pure and unconditional love.

We are back in LA.

After I wished Nurul and Martin a nice day, I am on the way to my apartment.

I open the door with shivering fingers.

I enter the apartment and listen. Everything quiet. Unsurprisingly.

I decide to make something to eat.

But before I start to cook, I look in each room.

Gosh, what have I expected? That Taylor is waiting for me in my apartment?

For a short moment I must laugh. Laugh about my own foolishness.

Suddenly the phone rings. I run to my phone and listen.

Me: “Taylor?!”

Orlando: “No, sorry! It’s just me – Orlando!”

Me (sighs): “Oh, hello!”

Orlando: “Is anything wrong?”

Me: “No, everything is okay. Don’t worry.”

Orlando: “We know us how long? For years? I KNOW there is something wrong. Or why you called me Taylor?”

Me: “What do you want, Orlando?”

Orlando: “I want to tell you something. But I see it’s not the perfect moment. I should call you later...”

Me: “No, it’s okay. Tell me.”

Orlando: “Okay... well....I don’t find the right words...”

Me: “Come on. Tell me, that you will marry Maha!”

Orlando is quiet. I know, he’s surprised about my answer.

Orlando: “How did you know about the wedding?”

Me: “Oh, I didn’t knew that... but honestly... it was long overdue. Congratulations my friend!”

Orlando: “Thank you. Maha was so happy – and I thought she love Harry... I am such a jerk.”

Me: “I knew it!”

Orlando: “Dear, listen. I am in LA since yesterday. Can we meet us? In 20 Minutes?”

Me: “Okay. Where?”

Orlando: “Do you remember this small café at the Sunset Boulevard?”

Me: “Yes. See you later!”

.......................................................................

20 Minutes later I am sitting in the café.

A few moments later Orlando is coming. But not alone.

Me: “MAHA!!!”

Maha: “Tamiiii!”

Orlando: “Surprise, Surprise!”

Me: “It’s so amazing, that you are here!”

Maha: “Yes, but not for long. We’ll fly back tomorrow. Orlando had to manage something here and so I decided to fly with him.”

Me: “By the way – congratulation Miss Orlando Bloom!”

Maha (laugh): “Thank you so much. Maha Bloom – sounds good, right?”

Me: “Of course!!!”

Maha: “Tell me honey, what’s happened with you and Taylor? Nurul called me. She was very worried.”

Me: “My handsome Nurul... she really is an angel.”

In the next minutes I tell them the whole story,

Both listend to me and it’s great to know such beautiful people.

After I finished my last sentence, Maha says:

Maha: “Have you heard something of him?”

Me: “No. And at the moment I think, that I was very rude to him.”

Maha: “I understand you and your reaction. I guess, I would do the same, when I would be in your position.”

Orlando: “Don’t forget. He’s young.”

Me: “Have you ever made mistakes, as you were young?”

Orlando (laughs): “Oh, Tami. I’ve made a lot of mistakes. Now I am 35 and, believe it or not, I am proud of my mistakes. I wouldn’t be this Orlando who’s sitting next to you if I haven’t made this mistakes. My mistakes help me to grow and to get stronger. Some things were stupid... but I don’t regret them. I am just a normal human being. We have to make mistakes. I am no Elf... I am not Legolas. And, I am not sure, if Legolas would make no mistakes. I guess, he make mistakes, too. You know, when I meet fans, they always talk about Legolas. When I have freetime and go outside and some fans recognize me, they always say: “Hey, that’s Legolas!”

Me: “May I ask you something?”

Orlando: “Sure!”

Me: “Do you understand Taylor?”

Orlando: “Yes... a little bit. You know, I had the age of Tay as I played Legolas. It wasn’t easy for me. All have made a big fuss about me. And there’s nobody who tell you “Hey Orlando – that’s your job now. You aren’t a nobody anymore – you are the man, who played Legolas... for the rest of your life and beyond all the people will know you as Legolas. This role is your destiny.”

Me: “And Jacob is Taylors destiny, right?”

Orlando: “I think so, yes. Honestly, the first time as you realize, that you aren’t a nobody anymore... it’s crazy. And it’s hard to understand, that others believe to know your life better, than yourself. The role of Jacob is a great start in this business. But nobody said, that this business is easy. I wish I’ve had someone who told me that as I filmed Lord of the Rings. And now, look at me. Soon “The Hobbit” will release in cinemas. I’ll marry this beautiful lady and maybe we will have kids someday. It’s unbelievable.”

Me: “And your little dispute about Harry?”

Maha: “Harry and I are friends. Close friends, but not more. Why all of you have thought, that I fell in love with him?”

Me: “Not all of us, honey. Just Orlando!”

We all laugh.

Maha: “You are laughing. Thanks god!”

Me: “Yes... thank you for your time!”

Suddenly the waiter is coming.

Waiter: “Excuse me Miss. I have something for you.”

I take the piece of paper.

Me: “Thank you!”

Maha: “What’s that? Read it, please!”

I read the handwritten letter:

“Heart beats harder,

Time escapes me

Trembling hands

Touch skin

It makes this harder

And the tears stream down my face

If we could only have this life

For one more day

If we could only turn back time...”

Orlando: “Strange... I know this words... but I don’t know from where...”

Maha (repeat the last sentences while she’s thinking about it): “If we could only have this life for one more day – if we could only turn back time... Orlando, Tami! That’s the song ‘Moments’ from One Direction!”

Me: “You’re right. Damn, I was such an idiot!”

Orlando: “I guess your present has arrived!”

Me: “A present?”

Suddenly I hear a voice:

“THE BEST MAN DIDN’T HAVE TIME TO GET A TUX!”

I look back and see Taylor. He holds a bouquet of flowers in his hands.

Me: “I... I am so sorry! I was unfair.”

Taylor: “No, your reaction was okay. It was my fault. The wrong tickets and all the other things. Please, forgive me! The last days without you were terrible. Here, these flowers are for you.”

Me: “Lilies?! Thank you so much!”

Taylor: “Your favourite flowers. I thought you would be happier about Lilies than roses.”

Me: “Yes, I love Lilies. Oh, Tay. Where have you been?”

Taylor: “If I were Jacob right now, I would answer: ‘I was in northern Canada. I think. It’s so weird to be back on two legs again and clothes. I fell out of practice with the whole human being.’ But I am not Jake.”

Me: “And I am not Bella...”

Taylor: “No... but you are much better than Bella.”

Me: “And you are much better than Jake.”

I give him a soft kiss.

Taylor: “So, does that mean, that you forgive me?”

Me: “There is nothing to forgive.”

Taylor looks at my wrist. He laughs.

Taylor: “Is that your present from the premiere?”

Me: “Yes, that’s my VIP-bracelet. With this bracelet I’ve got entry to the cinema... but not to you.”

Taylor: “Honey, I allow you to enter my heart – no matter with or without such a bracelet.”

So, you see guys, it wasn’t a story like the other ones. But it has an happy end.. or not? Maybe I should write further on this story... everything is okay. At the moment. The Sun shines again – but, how long?