Hey Guys,
how are you
all?
Well, I am
great.... *sighs*
No...
honestly I am not great... I am very disappointed and sad..
You want to
know what’s happened?
Okay, so
listen – I will tell you my story.
As you know,
Taylor, Martin, Nurul and I were in Egypt for Mahas birthday.
It was an amazing party, the guests were great and we had so much fun together.
The
performance of One Direction was amazing and Maha was so happy about
the meeting with them.
She has
spoken to Harry a lot and Orlando said sometimes to one of us: “Maybe
I am crazy, but have you seen that?”
And each of
us asked him: “What do you mean?”
His answer
was always the same: “She talk to him so... close... I hope she
doesn’t fall in love with him...”
We all smiled
and told him: “Orlando, you know that she loves YOU! Don’t be so
jealous. Be happy for her. Yes, she loves this band. But deep in her
heart you are her one and only.”
The sun
isn’t always shining. Sometimes there are clouds on the sky and we
aren’t able to see the sun. But deep in our souls, we know that
she’s never away. Sometimes we need to catch each ray of sunshine,
so that we have enough sunshine in our heart for cloudy days.
I know,
guys... It’s not one of my other stories full of happiness... and I
wish I could write another story... a story where everything is
alright and while we read this, we could laugh a lot.
No... I
am sorry! It’s a sad story... a story about love and the disputes,
which will come in each relationship someday.
I am sitting
in the plain on my way back to Los Angeles.
Nurul
is sitting next to me. She’s sleeping. Martin has his arms around
her to hold her warm and tight. They are so cute together. While I am
looking to this beautiful couple I feel my heartbeat. It beats slow
and quiet.
The beat of
my heart let me know that I am still alive. I am thankful for the
sound of my heart... ‘cause in the last few days I felt like I were
dead... and I hate this feeling. So, everytime when I am listening to
my heartbeat I say to my heart: “Thank you for beating, beautiful
heart! Even if you are broken... you are still alive.”
To say
goodbye to Maha and Orlando was not easy for us. We shed a lot of
tears and we all wished, that they could come with us back to L.A.
Hopefully we
will see us again soon. I am looking forward to it.
I
guess, Orlando will notice, that Maha loves him. Even if he think,
that her love for him is shaken. I don’t believe that. Maybe they
have a hard time... but the love for eachother isn’t vanished.
As I said, we
can’t see the sun always... but we know, that she’s still there!
I lean back
in my seat and think about the last weekend.
On our trip
from Egypt to Los Angeles we’ve made a stopover in Berlin.
Taylor has
invited us to come to the Breaking Dawn Part 2 premiere.
So we decide
to come and support him.
As we have
arrived in Berlin, Martin, Nurul and I decided to make a little
sightseeing tour while Taylor was at the press conference.
Before he
went away, we arranged that we meet us at the premiere.
He gave us 3
tickets, and said, that we should come at 6 o'clock (PM) to the premiere guest
counter for the check-in.
Time flies,
and the evening was there. We went to the check-in counter.
Woman: “Good
evening! How can I help you?”
Martin:
“Hello Miss. We have 3 tickets for the premiere.”
He showed her
the tickets, and while we’ve got our VIP-bracelet the woman said:
“Oh, just for your information. With your tickets it is not
possible to see the stars.”
Martin and
Nurul looked at me.
Me: “Excuse
me, but I know Taylor personally. He gave us this tickets to support
him on the red carpet.”
Woman: “I
am sorry! Your tickets doesn’t allow you to meet the actors.”
I
haven’t known what I should do at this moment, so I said to my
friends: “Come! I’m sure it’s a misunderstanding. We will see
Taylor on the red carpet. This woman has no clue.”
We went to
the red carpet and we’ve decide to wait for Taylor and the other
people.
After a few
minutes a man from the security came to us and said: “Keep moving!”
And he wasn’t
the only one at this evening who said this to us.
At the end,
we were in the cinema. I don’t wanted to stay, so I said to Nurul
and Martin: “Guys, are you angry when we leave the cinema?”
Nurul: “No,
but what shall we do now?”
Me: “We go
out of the cinema and keep an eye out for Taylor.”
So we left
the building and searched Taylor.
It was cold.
But we waited. And, finally, the actors came.
The bad thing
on this situation was, that we weren’t able to see Taylor.
We’ve just
seen the cars, in which they arrived.
I was so
upset.
We’ve
heard the girls scream and it was painful for me to know, that they
all were with Taylor, while we 3 stood apart.
So, I thought
it was better, to go.
We went
away...
Martin:
“Horrible night, huh?”
Me: “Yes...
but maybe it’s better...”
Nurul:
“Honey, don’t be sad. We are here with you – come on, we go and
eat something.”
An hour
later we sat in the hotel restaurant and ate something.
We talked
about Maha and Orlando.
Martin: “Do
you think Maha loves Harry?”
Nurul: “Yes..
but not so much as she loves Orlando. Harry and Maha – that’s a
deep friendship. But Orlando and Maha – that’s deep love! Do you
really think, that she would cheat on Orlando?”
Me: “Honey,
have you ever thought, that Taylor would give us wrong tickets? It’s
the same... people play with you... that’s life. So much people
think that love and life are games... there will be always a winner
and a loser... Orlando and I are the losers... so it is.”
Nurul: “Don’t
say that Tami. Please. Taylor loves you. And Maha loves Orlando.”
Martin:
“But...”
Nurul: “STOP
this discussion. I don’t want to hear this anymore.... Tami look!”
I looked
around me and saw Taylor. He came with Rob and Kristen.
I heard
Taylors laugh and I knew, that he had fun.
Taylor: “Hey
guys.”
Nurul and
Martin: “Hey Taylor. How are you?”
Taylor: “I
am fine. But I missed you on the premiere. Where were you?”
I said
nothing. I wanted to let him know, that he has made a mistake.
He realise,
that I was quiet. Too quiet.
Taylor:
“Honey, what’s happened? Aren’t you lucky?”
I heard
Kristen chuckle. Before I stood up, I looked at Kristen and Robert.
While Kristen chuckled, Rob looked at me. He wasn’t happy and I
knew, that he was able to understand why my mood was so bad. Finally
I said to Taylor: “I don’t know Taylor. Should I be lucky?
Do you see me smile? No?! Well, then I am not lucky. Sorry. But, I
see, you have enough fun. I think Rob is the only one of you 3 who
knows why I am so quiet. Maybe you should ask him if you don’t know
the answer. I will go now. Bye!”
No, he
haven’t tried to stop me. But that was indifferent to me. Only a
silent tear attended me on the way to my hotel room...
I met Nurul
and Martin at the next morning.
They
waited in the Lobby and I went to my wonderful friends.
Me: “Good
morning my dears.”
Nurul: “Good
morning Tami. How are you?”
Me: “You don't wanna know!”
Nurul: “I
am sorry!”
Me: “Don’t
worry, darling! It’s not your fault.”
Suddenly I’ve
heard someone’s throat behind my back.
I looked
behind me and saw... Robert.
Rob: “Hey
dear. I just wanted to know, how you are?”
Me: “Well,
it’s okay. Don’t worry about me.”
Rob: “I
am so sorry because of yesterday. Tay and Kris were high-spirited.”
Me: “Rob,
please! Don’t say sorry. There is no reason for YOU, to say sorry.
And, it’s indifferent for me, what Taylor and Kristen were
yesterday...!”
Rob: “What
are you doing now?”
Me: “I’ll
fly back to LA this afternoon. Why?”
Rob: “Well,
is it possible that you spend some time with me? I want to invite you
to a special party! Please, say yes!”
I thought a
few moments about this idea.
After Nurul
and Martin told me, that they would come with us, I agreed.
Honestly, I
don’t wanted to go to a party... but I noticed, that it was really
important for Rob and so I came with him.
We drove a
few minutes in the car.
Then we
stopped. I looked out of the window and saw “Madame Tussauds”.
Rob smiled.
Me: “That’s
your special party?”
Rob: “Yes...
I know this stars aren’t real... but I thought you will have fun
anyway.”
I
laughed. It really was a nice idea of him.
Nurul,
Martin, Rob and I visited the museum with the wax figures.
It was a nice
afternoon – we’ve met the singer Robbie Williams, the german
Formula 1 winner Sebastian Vettel, the actress Nicole Kidman and last
but not least the actors George Clooney and Johnny Depp.
After
our visit at Madame Tussauds, we drove to the airport and said
goodbye to Robert.
Nurul: “What
are you doing now, Rob?”
Rob: “I
will fly to London now. I’ll visit my family there.”
Me: “Enjoy
your stay in London!”
He
embraced me and whispered: “Taylor would be such an idiot if he
would let you go! Take care, Sweety!”
Me: “I do!”
Martin:
“A penny for your thoughts!”
I look at
him. Nurul is still sleeping and I realize that he watched me the
whole time.
Martin: “I
am sorry. I don’t want to scare you.”
Me: “It’s
okay. I am not scared.”
Martin: “No,
you have dreamt with open eyes, right?”
Me: “I
thought about the premiere...”
Martin: “Have
you heard something of Taylor?”
Me: “No.
Never mind!”
Martin
(smiles): “Liar! I know you are sad. And his reaction wasn’t
okay. You know that.”
Me:
“Yes... I know that. He’s such a jerk – only Rob knows what’s
wrong...”
Martin:
“Dear, I believe that Taylor knows exactly what’s wrong... “
I am looking
at him and Nurul.
Me:
“Sometimes I wished, that Taylor would be a normal person – like
you. A doctor, or something. Maha and I... we have actors as
partners... and so, we have always little problems in our
relationships... but you and Nurul... you are so happy together.”
Martin:
“Thank you for this compliment. But believe me, even a normal
couple has troubles. THAT is normal. Remember our first meeting. Do
you remember how afraid I was, because of my past? You told me a
special phrase.”
Me: “Love
is always worth fighting for... it's important for us to that we fight for the things we want from the bottom of our heart...”
Martin: “Yes.
Do you think it was easy for me to say Nurul the truth about my past?
To tell her my mistakes? You know how much I believed, she would hate
me for this. But she doesn’t. She’s my angel which God has sent to
me. And I am so thankful for this wonderful present.”
Me: “Nurul
is such a lucky and blessed girl to have you by her side!”
Martin:
“Thank you, dear! You know, each of us, no matter who, have to
fight their own more or less small battles in this life. We are here
to learn three things: LIVE, LOVE, LAUGH! That’s the secret.
Remember, we can’t have a rainbow without rain. And we can’t love
without a little pain. Your heart seems broken... but I know, that
your heart is still fine. Maybe there’s a little scratch. But this
wound will heal soon.”
Me:
“Are you sure?”
Martin:
“Yes.Your bloody wound will transform into a scarf. And someday you
will look at this special scarf and think about yesterday. And I am
sure, Taylor will stand behind you, hug you and he will say to you:
Honey, I know I’ve made a mistake but I’ve tried to carry the
pain of your scarf with you the last years. Your luck, is my luck and
your pain, is my pain too!”
Me: “Are
you a clairvoyant?”
Martin: “No,
dear. I am just a man, who has made mistakes and learned from them. Taylor
is young. He will learn his lessons, too. By the way, we will arrive
in 30 minutes.”
Martin
gives Nurul a kiss on his forehead and stroke her cheek.
While he’s
doing that, he whispers: “Nurul, my darling. It’s time to wake
up.”
Nurul opens
her eyes, smiles and looks in Martins face.
I swear, I’ve
never seen such a lovely sight before. The bond between them is pure
and unconditional love.
We are back
in LA.
After I
wished Nurul and Martin a nice day, I am on the way to my apartment.
I open
the door with shivering fingers.
I enter the
apartment and listen. Everything quiet. Unsurprisingly.
I decide to
make something to eat.
But before I
start to cook, I look in each room.
Gosh, what
have I expected? That Taylor is waiting for me in my apartment?
For a short
moment I must laugh. Laugh about my own foolishness.
Suddenly the
phone rings. I run to my phone and listen.
Me:
“Taylor?!”
Orlando:
“No, sorry! It’s just me – Orlando!”
Me (sighs):
“Oh, hello!”
Orlando: “Is
anything wrong?”
Me: “No,
everything is okay. Don’t worry.”
Orlando: “We
know us how long? For years? I KNOW there is something wrong. Or why
you called me Taylor?”
Me: “What
do you want, Orlando?”
Orlando:
“I want to tell you something. But I see it’s not the perfect
moment. I should call you later...”
Me: “No,
it’s okay. Tell me.”
Orlando:
“Okay... well....I don’t find the right words...”
Me: “Come
on. Tell me, that you will marry Maha!”
Orlando is
quiet. I know, he’s surprised about my answer.
Orlando: “How
did you know about the wedding?”
Me: “Oh, I
didn’t knew that... but honestly... it was long overdue.
Congratulations my friend!”
Orlando:
“Thank you. Maha was so happy – and I thought she love Harry... I
am such a jerk.”
Me: “I knew
it!”
Orlando:
“Dear, listen. I am in LA since yesterday. Can we meet us? In 20
Minutes?”
Me: “Okay.
Where?”
Orlando: “Do
you remember this small café at the Sunset Boulevard?”
Me: “Yes.
See you later!”
.......................................................................
20 Minutes
later I am sitting in the café.
A few moments
later Orlando is coming. But not alone.
Me: “MAHA!!!”
Maha:
“Tamiiii!”
Orlando:
“Surprise, Surprise!”
Me: “It’s
so amazing, that you are here!”
Maha: “Yes,
but not for long. We’ll fly back tomorrow. Orlando had to manage
something here and so I decided to fly with him.”
Me: “By the
way – congratulation Miss Orlando Bloom!”
Maha (laugh):
“Thank you so much. Maha Bloom – sounds good, right?”
Me: “Of
course!!!”
Maha: “Tell
me honey, what’s happened with you and Taylor? Nurul called me. She
was very worried.”
Me: “My
handsome Nurul... she really is an angel.”
In the next
minutes I tell them the whole story,
Both listend
to me and it’s great to know such beautiful people.
After I
finished my last sentence, Maha says:
Maha: “Have
you heard something of him?”
Me: “No.
And at the moment I think, that I was very rude to him.”
Maha: “I
understand you and your reaction. I guess, I would do the same, when
I would be in your position.”
Orlando:
“Don’t forget. He’s young.”
Me: “Have
you ever made mistakes, as you were young?”
Orlando
(laughs): “Oh, Tami. I’ve made a lot of mistakes. Now I am 35
and, believe it or not, I am proud of my mistakes. I wouldn’t be
this Orlando who’s sitting next to you if I haven’t made this
mistakes. My mistakes help me to grow and to get stronger. Some
things were stupid... but I don’t regret them. I am just a normal
human being. We have to make mistakes. I am no Elf... I am not
Legolas. And, I am not sure, if Legolas would make no mistakes. I
guess, he make mistakes, too. You know, when I meet fans, they always
talk about Legolas. When I have freetime and go outside and some fans
recognize me, they always say: “Hey, that’s Legolas!”
Me: “May I
ask you something?”
Orlando:
“Sure!”
Me: “Do you
understand Taylor?”
Orlando:
“Yes... a little bit. You know, I had the age of Tay as I played
Legolas. It wasn’t easy for me. All have made a big fuss about me.
And there’s nobody who tell you “Hey Orlando – that’s your
job now. You aren’t a nobody anymore – you are the man, who played
Legolas... for the rest of your life and beyond all the people will
know you as Legolas. This role is your destiny.”
Me: “And
Jacob is Taylors destiny, right?”
Orlando: “I
think so, yes. Honestly, the first time as
you realize, that you aren’t a nobody anymore... it’s crazy. And
it’s hard to understand, that others believe to know your life
better, than yourself. The role of Jacob is a great start in this
business. But nobody said, that this business is easy. I wish I’ve
had someone who told me that as I filmed Lord of the Rings. And now,
look at me. Soon “The Hobbit” will release in cinemas. I’ll
marry this beautiful lady and maybe we will have kids someday. It’s
unbelievable.”
Me: “And
your little dispute about Harry?”
Maha:
“Harry and I are friends. Close friends, but not more. Why all of
you have thought, that I fell in love with him?”
Me: “Not
all of us, honey. Just Orlando!”
We all laugh.
Maha: “You
are laughing. Thanks god!”
Me: “Yes...
thank you for your time!”
Suddenly
the waiter is coming.
Waiter:
“Excuse me Miss. I have something for you.”
I take the
piece of paper.
Me: “Thank
you!”
Maha: “What’s
that? Read it, please!”
I read the
handwritten letter:
“Heart
beats harder,
Time escapes
me
Trembling
hands
Touch skin
It makes this
harder
And the tears
stream down my face
If we could
only have this life
For one more
day
If we could
only turn back time...”
Orlando:
“Strange... I know this words... but I don’t know from where...”
Maha (repeat
the last sentences while she’s thinking about it): “If we could
only have this life for one more day – if we could only turn back
time... Orlando, Tami! That’s the song ‘Moments’ from One
Direction!”
Me: “You’re
right. Damn, I was such an idiot!”
Orlando:
“I guess your present has arrived!”
Me: “A
present?”
Suddenly I
hear a voice:
“THE BEST
MAN DIDN’T HAVE TIME TO GET A TUX!”
I look back
and see Taylor. He holds a bouquet of flowers in his hands.
Me: “I... I
am so sorry! I was unfair.”
Taylor: “No,
your reaction was okay. It was my fault. The wrong tickets and all
the other things. Please, forgive me! The last days without you were
terrible. Here, these flowers are for you.”
Me: “Lilies?!
Thank you so much!”
Taylor: “Your
favourite flowers. I thought you would be happier about Lilies than
roses.”
Me:
“Yes, I love Lilies. Oh, Tay. Where have you been?”
Taylor: “If
I were Jacob right now, I would answer: ‘I was in northern Canada.
I think. It’s so weird to be back on two legs again and clothes. I
fell out of practice with the whole human being.’ But I am not
Jake.”
Me: “And I
am not Bella...”
Taylor:
“No... but you are much better than Bella.”
Me: “And
you are much better than Jake.”
I give him a
soft kiss.
Taylor: “So,
does that mean, that you forgive me?”
Me: “There
is nothing to forgive.”
Taylor
looks at my wrist. He laughs.
Taylor: “Is
that your present from the premiere?”
Me: “Yes,
that’s my VIP-bracelet. With this bracelet I’ve got entry to the
cinema... but not to you.”
Taylor:
“Honey, I allow you to enter my heart – no matter with or without
such a bracelet.”
So, you see
guys, it wasn’t a story like the other ones. But it has an happy
end.. or not? Maybe I should write further on this story...
everything is okay. At the moment. The Sun shines again – but, how
long?
